My Loves

Happy Valentine's Day to my three loves.....love my little family!

Stuck in between

It's been a season of stuck in between lately for me. Stuck in between pain and tolerance. Between anger and forgiveness. Between agony and contentment. When your "fat pants" are too big and your next size down are too small. Friends, it's a very frustrating place to be.

After dealing with some pretty intense personal things in early November to rushing through the holidays it seems I was spit out in January absolutely exhausted. January is such a depressing month for me in general. Holiday decorations have been put away. Parties have stopped. The weather gets more severe, and things at work slow to a snail's pace. It gives me a lot of time to contemplate what has been going on in my life. This year I have realized that I am stuck in a quagmire, unable to really make headway in any direction. I've been struggling against myself and against situations that are far out of my control. My energy is depleted and my patience is thin.

February has begun and I hope to have a path to move toward this month. I started reading a book called Calm My Anxious Heart by Linda Dillow. It's all about teaching yourself to give your situations over to God and allow Him to rule the situations of your life. I am hoping that this book will illuminate that path I so desperately look for, and will provide some spiritual renewal that I believe will help bolster other energies. If you have any extra energy just hanging around your house, could you bottle it up and send it my way?